I am the girl that has always had a plan, always had an answer.
That's one of the cool things about being a mom to a 3 year old, most of the questions are pretty easy to answer and I look super smart.
When I told Z that I no longer had a job, she cried - hard. She looked up at me, eyes full of tears and said, "But Momma, what are we gonna do?" And for the first time in her life, I didn't have an answer.
I really do not have an answer right now, my plan right this second revolves around cleaning and organizing our home during her last week in school.
Next week, I think we may go fishing, maybe even go for a trip to the swimming hole.
Beyond that - well, I just don't know right now.
This week, I am trying to pull myself back together, trying to repair myself from the damage done. Trying to figure out who I am again.
And right now, it's a pretty big job.